Yesterday...

I had a talk with a dear friend, who opened my eyes up to a few things..

The biggest thing I learned out of our conversation was that I have lost focus on the art aspect of my art. I've been so keenly aware of my lack of sales that the only thing I've been concerned with artwise is the money end of it.

Of course, in order to be a self sustaining artist you have to be able to make money at it, but making art should be your primary goal, and if you're a good enough artist, and get your work out there, then you will be able to make a living at it. I think the fact that I'm not liking my day job so much has been as big a contributor to my lack of vision as anything else, so it's time to get refocused.

Today I paint, trying to finish up my Granny painting...

I'll update the site when I'm done...

Hmm...

I wonder, if it's just the artists temperment, that causes him to doubt his works, to think all he does is never good enough, that it's all just so much pigment on canvases... or if it's just me.

Monet used to burn the canvases he wasn't satisfied with, I'm too cheap for that, lol...

Sometimes I get caught up in looking at what I do, and get frustrated that I am not where I want to be with my art yet. I know that the trick is to keep painting, because I learn wih each one, but still... I guess I should be happy that I haven't peaked yet.

I get alot of positive comments on my work, everyone tells me I'm good...

So how come I'm not selling anything? My art show turned out to be one of the most disappointing events in my life. Not the show itself, I was very proud of that, and was grateful that you got to see it in real life, but I sold one piece, only one, and that let me down. Maybe my expectations were too high, or maybe my ego got ahead of my capabilities...

At any rate, I'm considering abandoning the gallery idea, it's not been working out for me so well. I'm spending 90 dollars a month for gallery space, and not selling, hell I can let it sit here at home and not sell it for free, lol...

I don't know... maybe I'm just in a down cycle in my biorythym ....

Guess I'll paint...